haiti earthquake

as i saw the world crash down upon those i loved i wanted to reach out, to help.
but i cannot reach through the television, and i can't fly there.
so i sat on the couch, helpless. with heavy tears in my eyes, streaming down to my broken heart. the country i had so long ago given my heart to, the country of my sisters. helplessly i fell to my knees. i was human, just one girl i couldn't do anything. but i did know who could so i fell to my knees. and as tears mixed with prayer i plead to save my sister. to keep her safe and bring her home to me. i prayed harder and more than ever before. and through the death and destruction i knew she would be alright. my father in heaven was holding her in his arms. he knew her, he loved her. and he loved me.

the next day was probably the hardest day of my entire life, the uncertainty, the plain not knowing. you know the phrase what you don't know can't hurt you, well i would beg a differ. the empty void of unknowns. i prayed all day. and i cried all day. i sat in class, the teachers talking away. i didn't take notes, i wasn't even listening. my saddened eyes occasionally leaking a tear before i would quickly wipe it away. the day passed excruciatingly slow, each second a heartbeat. without the help of dear friends i would have lost it. i got home and ate. i ate whatever i could find and then went to sleep. i guess that is how i can cope with things. sad, yes, but necessary for survival. i napped for about two and a half hours. waking up to go to my uncles birthday dinner. surrounded by my cousins and aunt, uncles and family i felt slightly better. they were all worried about their niece, granddaughter, cousin and they were all praying. my little sister told my other sister that things would be ok. because my little Haitian sister is brave! she said it like she knew for sure. and i guess she did. that little tefe had been through more than i will probably ever be asked to go through. and then on the day of her eighth birthday a quake, one that shook her entire world. i can only imagine the fears of over two hundred little orphans all terrified. my sister one of them. she shouldn't have to go through that but she did. she should have been home with us, but she wasn't.